My Gratitude Diary #1

Thank God it's Monday taste like friday.

• Because tomorrow is a free day. And I already get things to do for tomorrow, and really excited about that. guess what? I am gonna have my very-first fun-rock-climbing activity tomorrow. I am trying so hard to hold my excitement and hold the expectation so far, because I don't want any expectation to ruin the fun. 

• Sometimes, when I get alone in my room, I put the music on, and start on trying clothes, yes, it is more than one piece of clothe, and today luckily it is just 5 piece of clothes that I put on me. Because I will having to attend my friend's wedding this saturday, I pondered the question of what clothes to wear for the occasion. the music, and the clothes I have been try to put on me, somehow bring my moods up today. 

okay, think it is done for today, because I have to get some rest so I could wake up early tomorrow morning. yeiy! can't wait for a fun-rock climbing tomorrow! 

  

A little piece of one soul

Teruntuk jiwa yang datang tak terduga
Menemukan belahannya setelah sekian lama
Terpaut angka yang tak bermakna
Mengisi ruang dalam jiwa yang hampa

Teruntuk jiwa yang mengutuk takdir
Adakah upaya agar ini tak segera berakhir
Berandai andai pada sebuah kemungkinan
Mungkinkah bahagia ini dapat terus hadir

Teruntuk jiwa yang terus mengukir
Kata cinta dalam bisik manja
Pernahkah engkau berpikir
Ada sesak dalam cinta yang tak nyata

Teruntuk jiwa.
Yang terlambat datangnya.
Biarlah ini jadi rahasia.

Opinion and why it's hard for me

As a 23 years old young employee and proudly saying that I am a pure generation Y, I found myself a little bit of having difficulties expressing my own opinion. There might be some reasons that made me feel that way, such as :

First, because I usually holding my self to express an argument because I am having trouble with my diction, the words I choose sometimes (almost everytime) hurting others. And telling opinion in a very assertive way, is really hard. So, I am giving applause for those who could express their opinion without even hurting others feeling, and not involving any emotion in their opinion.

Second,  I found myself a lil bit too easy to distract by something, hard to focus on important thing, lately I have been thinking myself "am I having an Attention Deficit Disorder?" hopefully not. 

Third, as insecure as a teenage girl who is still in an identity crisis phase, hardly to admit that I am a real coward because I am scared that other will judge me within my opinion about something, I am scared of standing in one side, I am scared of being responsible about what I choose to believe. Or, in psychology phrase we used to call it 'the spotlight effect' it is the phenomenon when we tend to believe that we are being noticed more than we really are. 

For those three reason, so far I still have no solution to beat it, but now I am trying to deal with things that make me scared of in expressing opinion. 

Doing some teraphy by writing in this blog.. :) 

voila!