Semenjak nonton SATC yang sekarang muncul di starworld tiap malam, jadi mulai tertarik lagi buat ngerasain seninya menulis. biar cem ala-ala Carrie Bradshaw gitu deh hidup gw. But, since sex is somehow taboo in our culture, then people choose to write anything about love, or it's just only me who generate people.. hihi
Well, talkin bout love, there's something in my overthinking mind that bothers me from the second I woke up.. Dari kemarin mimpiin orang-orang yang pernah terlalu dekat dalam kehidupan gw di Bandung.. we can call this two man with Mr. Nice and Mr. Wonderwall. Maybe my subconscious just miss them, miss their existence in my daily life, well since I get back to Jakarta, it needs an extra effort to meet them.
I prefer talk about Mr. Wonderwall that bothers me this whole day. I miss having a little chit chat with him, a long private talkin bout anything, and those high tones of voice that we both made because of having different opinion about something. I miss this guy that reflects myself like a mirror. The wall between me and him as big as the feeling of scare if he's not around me, there when I need.
And start asking myself, how could we feel so sure about the relationship we're in, when there's always the chance that you might fallen with other personalities that you could get comfort more, or what is actually we're looking for in a relationship?
March 17, 2015
March 13, 2015
Banjir kata-kata
Menemukan kembali keberadaan blog ini seperti menemukan harta karun rasanya. Terlalu banyak momen yang terlewat, terlalu banyak rasa yang tak sempat terekspresikan, dan terlalu banyak kata-kata yang ingin segera dituangkan, sabar ya, aku butuh waktu untuk kembali merangkai kata setelah lama tak melakukannya.
Saat ini, ada dua hal yang sedang berperang dalam pikiranku untuk jadi cerita yang akan kutulis. supaya adil, aku harus menjaga keduanya dalam ingatan agar tak buyar dan dapat menuliskan keduanya.
Hal pertama adalah tentang betapa aku sangat menikmati membaca atau mendengarkan cerita kehidupan orang lain, tapi kesulitan untuk menuliskan cerita tentang kehidupanku. Ada satu titik dalam hidupku dimana aku akhirnya sadar bahwa selama ini aku tak pandai bercerita, not a typical of storyteller girl when other girls can't stop talkin about theirself, satu titik ketika aku merasa tidak adil pada pasanganku karena selama aku menjalani hubungan dengannya, hanya dia yang cerita tentang hidupnya, tapi aku tidak.
Ergh, ternyata susah menjadi seorang penulis, yang harus bisa fokus pada apa yang sedang ia ceritakan, sedangkan aku kesulitan merangkai mana dulu yang harus diceritakan, atau apakah bagian ini bisa jadi bagian yang berkesinambungan dengan kalimat atau topik yang sedang aku bicarakan. And this is one of the reason there's not so much post in my blog, but just so you know, there's more than hundred draft on it. no. just kidding. it was just ten draft I guess. haha
Dan pada dasarnya, ide utama dari cerita pertama adalah. boom. it's already gone and I already forget that... damn. dan bye juga ide kedua. haha
Saat ini, ada dua hal yang sedang berperang dalam pikiranku untuk jadi cerita yang akan kutulis. supaya adil, aku harus menjaga keduanya dalam ingatan agar tak buyar dan dapat menuliskan keduanya.
Hal pertama adalah tentang betapa aku sangat menikmati membaca atau mendengarkan cerita kehidupan orang lain, tapi kesulitan untuk menuliskan cerita tentang kehidupanku. Ada satu titik dalam hidupku dimana aku akhirnya sadar bahwa selama ini aku tak pandai bercerita, not a typical of storyteller girl when other girls can't stop talkin about theirself, satu titik ketika aku merasa tidak adil pada pasanganku karena selama aku menjalani hubungan dengannya, hanya dia yang cerita tentang hidupnya, tapi aku tidak.
Ergh, ternyata susah menjadi seorang penulis, yang harus bisa fokus pada apa yang sedang ia ceritakan, sedangkan aku kesulitan merangkai mana dulu yang harus diceritakan, atau apakah bagian ini bisa jadi bagian yang berkesinambungan dengan kalimat atau topik yang sedang aku bicarakan. And this is one of the reason there's not so much post in my blog, but just so you know, there's more than hundred draft on it. no. just kidding. it was just ten draft I guess. haha
Dan pada dasarnya, ide utama dari cerita pertama adalah. boom. it's already gone and I already forget that... damn. dan bye juga ide kedua. haha
3 years later
when writing this post, I'm thinking about, should I start it with "I" or should I write it with "They said" or with some another good quotes like people nowadays, then it goes just like this. Been almost 3 years I've forgot about this blog, well now there's so many place to throw your sh*t which called twitter, then we have place to put picture called instagram, and we have place to always put what we're doing called path, so everyone start to forget about place called blog (including me). But then I miss this place, where I can write anything in my mind, speak it to the world out loud without caring how many people will love it or like it. oh how I miss writing, and this blog quite make me feel good about myself that I used to write, even not so much, and the things that I wrote is not important like at all..
It's March 2105. So many things change, so many things I want to write, too many values or lesson in life that I've got this past year, but so little documentation about that all. ugh stupid. okay, note to self, I will write things down from rite now in this place.
But one thing I wanna tell to my future self just as a reminder if one day she suddenly found this blog. Please write what's on your mind dear self, you need that. one thing that always bother her is the over thinker side of her, deep down, I think those over think habit will make her gone crazy if you don't have media to express it. A lesson in life, will have it values if you either write it down, or discuss it with others, if you just keep it in yourself and you don't write it down, it will fade away in any second. got that? ;)
It's March 2105. So many things change, so many things I want to write, too many values or lesson in life that I've got this past year, but so little documentation about that all. ugh stupid. okay, note to self, I will write things down from rite now in this place.
But one thing I wanna tell to my future self just as a reminder if one day she suddenly found this blog. Please write what's on your mind dear self, you need that. one thing that always bother her is the over thinker side of her, deep down, I think those over think habit will make her gone crazy if you don't have media to express it. A lesson in life, will have it values if you either write it down, or discuss it with others, if you just keep it in yourself and you don't write it down, it will fade away in any second. got that? ;)
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